lazy at blogging

Well I feel that I have been very lazy. Should have got round to blogging. Its been nearly 3 weeks!!!!! Lifes been a bit hectic. Been making loads of soap. I have been doing a full day at work then going home and working making soap for 3-4 hours a night so that I will have lots of stock to sell once I can start trading. Have also had to sort out commercial insurance which is not too expensive ( £300 ish) so better that I expected. On top of all this spending ages talking to graphic designers and still making new soaps for next years collection so its all very hard right now. I havent had any time to blog or even to email most of the people I normally keep in touch with! I really really need to spend less time doing my mindless job. Its so frustrating now that I am stuck doing something that seems completely pointless and I hate. I think the real problem is I do not feel at all Stretched at work and you do need some sort of stimulation. My old job working for a local council was at least stimulating and made me feel I was achieving something even tho I hated most of what I was expected to do. I worked in enforcement of environmental crime then and most of what I enforced was just petty and I simply didnt believe in my work at all. Still it may have paid less but was much better than my current work from the point of veiw I was less bored. I suppose at some point you always get bored at work but where I am now its just constant boredom with little interest at all. I suppose it pays the bills. Other than that its simply not worth the effort of getting out of bed! And I spend the majority of my life feeling this way. Its such a waste of a lifetime. I am sure the majority of workers feel this way. There just has to be something better. Now tho I have to face the possibility my own company will just not take off. Its all quite scary really but if I do not go for it what else will come my way to improve my life. I envy these people who have the courage to just up sticks and run off to live at the seaside not even knowing how they are going to eat when they get there. If I didnt own a house it would all be much easier to do but I do own a house and its currently not in a fit state to sell even if they were selling at the moment which they are not due to financial climate in this country. I can plan ahead and think of the future and maybe in 2 years move to cornwall or devon but right now it all seems really frustrating and pointless. It all a bit sad really cos you go to work and spend the day wishing it will end so you can go home .........wishing your life away. Sad to say but sometimes I truly wish I never went to Uni and had stayed unemployed and unemployable without qualifications and on a low income cos at least then I was free!