Grandma

I went to visit my Grandma. She has refused to see me for months since she says she doesnt want me to see her like this. Mad tho cos if I dont go she is going to die and I will not have seen her since Easter. Anyway just turned up on her doorstep. She is in a very bad way. Has mercury bandages on her legs which are very swollen and also has what could be the start of plurisy. I am sad to think it may really be the end. I know the stuff people say..................shes lived to a good age etc ............she is 93. But it wont help at all. She is still my grandma. I sent my brother (in france) an email and a text .............its Bastile Day today tho so he will probably be on holiday and wont read them. I may have been a bit too honest and brutal too so am wishing had been more thoughtful in how I worded it. Still he has also not been allowed to visit Grandma so he needs to know what is happening. One thing tho she is still not at all senile so that bodes quite well for me and my brothers really. If she didnt have carers tho she would have to go into a home or starve to death. Its that simple. She cant go out without someone to take her and considering she used to go all the way from Coventry to Walsall ( at least 25-30 miles) on her bus pass just because the lamb chops were better value there she has been a very active person till quite recently. She used to be out someowhere every day infact. Then again that is probably why she has lasted so long. I am finding this all very sad. Anyway most of my life is really quite unimportant and most of what I get up to is pretty mundane but Grandma is very important to me so I am blogging about her here for the world to know.