Loads is suddenly happening

Life at work is still quite frosty to say the least. I am now trying to build a website. Well really 2 websites. One - the urgent one is being built with a web builder package that will inevitably cost me a fortune but will be much quicker to do. The other one I am using to learn how to use HTML and several other things. i think one was CSS but I am not sure. Right now its all very frustrating and difficult. I was so excited yesterday to actually get some text onto a site. Today tho decided it will take forever for me to do it that way and I have a free trial for a month to use this website building software so decided to have a go - even though that meant wiping my little bit of text I finally managed to publish off. Amazing the difference. I am sticking with the web builder for the important site. At least for now. I think if I carry on with HTML it will be so basic no one will want to visit it. Well I will carry on learning cos its really quite interesting. I had a short go at programming years ago with a language called Modula 2. At that time I was more bothered about passing my Uni course so gave up and concentrated on core modules. Now tho its possible I may at some point have some time to play. Exactly when that will be I really do not know. I seem to be so busy with this business stuff. Still havent finished the business plan either. Tho really it seems to me its just an action plan and you really need it to find a loan or finance. Since I do not expect to need huge amounts of money or to grow that big that quickly i will not need to visit the bank just yet.

House is still in falling down state but who knows maybe a miracle will happen. Had some quotes for air source heat pumps and for biomass boilers. At best we have about half of what we need and that leaves us with no cashsavings and between 3 and 6 k in debt! Not do-able at all. The kitchen is almost finished now. We even have plinths so best to look on the bright side if there is one. At least its summer. For now anyway.

I have decided now I live in the middle of no where it really doesnt matter to much what I wear so going to try very hard not to buy any new clothes. Well I have loads and its money I could do with saving right now.

Read the most amazing thing today. Some internet site that I should have book marked and didnt.

It asked if its really worth the cost to go to work.

Thats the cost of fuel, time and energy, being away from familly and friends. I have to say I really do not think it is worth the cost. I just havent yet found a way to make enough money not to go. Not that I spend much really. Its just you have to have some money just to live.

animal rights vs career!

Today I was asked to attend on corporate dinner and go horse racin! Boss not happy with me. Had to telll em all I dont want to go for moral reasons. To be real needed to go to animal aid and look up death of racers figures. No one asked me tho! I am now an outsider! Will they sack me! Its quite scary cos cannot afford to lose my job. Even more so cos boiler (oil fired) was condemned last saturday

I think they will find a reason to get rid of or not need me. I do not fit in!I know most likely no-one is even reading this but either way its scary!

I want my own business. I want going to take a risk on it. May have to. Why do I need to be victimised when there are millions like me all over the planet. I am not alone.

WE are strong. We are vegetarian. We do not eat animals!

Very worrying!But it waS A CHOICE am i A HYpochrite or am I real.? M Told me to fake it, to go along and get involved. I am real tho. Me! true even tho many pepes do not agree with my beliefs.

Oh and M tells me |I am anully retentive!!!!!!! to ask for a questionaire to be complete for feedback from soap! DEvry one who has kindly done that all you need to do now is tell me!

dead boiler

Finally we got the boiler engineer out bto service our boiler which is oil fired. Infact we have been trying to get the thing serviced since October but they can never fit us in. Anyway he said it would take about an hour. In the end it took 3 hours. Apparently we have a water leak. M did all the dealings with the boiler man and I went shopping which was certainly a bonus tho Tesco and Asda on a saturday are horrible, Anyway we need a new boiler. He says its about £1100 plus fitting. I have found some on the internet which are £800 plus VAT also not including fitting. Not good for the savings this. It didnt surprise me to find this out because everything else in the house has needed replacing or repairing ( most still ongoing) but at least its summer so we can probably get thru for a few weeks with just checking and adjusting the water pressure on the one we have. We had a very productive day today. Cut down half of the leylandii that blcok the light and the garden is looking huge. Cant cut down the rest because firstly we are both completely knacked and second its going to take us at least 3 trips to the local tip to get rid of the branches. M tried shredding them with this shredder my dad gave us but its just useless and doesnt seem to reduce the waste so I cant see why any one bothers with them. Just glad we didnt waste any money buying it! I also strimmed three quarters of the garden but then the strimmer cable ran out so part of the garden will have to remain a jungle till next week now. Havent done anything at all with soap or the business this weekend.

usless at blogin!

Well do not seem to be very good at this blogging/ diary stuff really. Not very good at workin either. Making soap/ the business is always on my mind and finding it very difficult to actually do my job properly! Normally would start looking for a new job but this time think I need to concentrate on my business. The trouble is will my employer sack me for not getting round go being ace at my job. Normally either I would become ace or leave. Have never (yet) been sacked! Bit worried cos cant concentrate. This time round I can do with keeping the job to pay bills etc and also doing my own thing. Am a bit worried tho cos now M wants a logistics business instead. Him to operate tho. Could be good for me getting cheaper rates at a future date I suppose! My employer is just annoying me right now. Cant seem to do anything right. Apparently zero% payrise this year too which has annoyed me especially since the country has currently got a serious inflation problem.