Today is Imbolg ( or Imbolc) the fire festival of Brigid, the warrior goddess of our ancestors. For me Brigid (who was christianised as St Brigid or Bride and who gives her name to the word bride) is the most interesting of our old gods. Brigid was the warrior aspect of the celtic triple goddess. Our mother.
Inbolg comes midway between the equinox and the solstice. Its the start of spring. The daffs and crocuses are just peeping through the grass in my front garden too so it is true. Not that you would know it was spring where I live since we have had a couple of inches of snow today and it is still snowing. I gave in and went to work in combats and my ancient shiny black docs - which interestingly are currently for sale in Topshop! Mine are circa 1993 tho and a bit or possibly very worn but also very comfy and they do not yet leak despite being old and worn a bit on the left foot from gear changes on my motorcyle ( which went years ago!). I originally bought these docs to wear when I took my landlord to court for illegal eviction thats how I know I bought them in 1993. At the time they seemed very respectable shoes. Strange how times change! Anyway have come to work "casual" which I normally make it a rule not to do. Partly cos it makes it easier to spot me if they know how I dress outside work and I like to try and keep my anonymity but also because I have loads of office type clothing that needs wearing out and not much "play" clothes so I like to keep them for "play". I cannot currently afford any new clothes so the ones I own that I like are a bit precious to me.
I dont have any great moments to blog about today but just felt the urge to write so I had better do that. Especially since I am so slack at getting round to blogging usually. Spoke to the guy who does my safety assessments today and he says my lip balms should be done in time for Brighton Vegan Fayre which is great. Just need to get making them as soon as he says I can. No point till then just incase they do not pass for some reason. Knowing my luck if I did they would fail on something at the last minute. Hopefully I will be able to make enogh money to buy the packaging for them ( ie aluminium lip balm pots) without using my credit card. Cant depend on that tho! I did not do as well this week on the market in Rugby as I did last which was a disapointment. The other traders didnt either tho and were putting it down to the very cold weather. Who knows. They are all telling me to stick with it tho so I shall. The guy who runs the market insists I need more products but until my safety assessment comes thru I wont have any unless I buy something in and so far I have not found anything to sell that will probably sell and no one else is selling! Difficult one. I am considering SLS and parabenz and possibly fluoride free toothpaste but other than that I am drawn towards the fair trade and hippy stuff but M reckons I will just get stuck with loads of gimicky stuff that only people like me want! Maybe hes right! So anyway I dont really want to go getting into debt for rubbish I cannot get rid of. Its all very difficult. I will investigate toothpaste tho and see what I can do cos that could be a good one that will give minimum effort and I can just sell and not need to safety assess or make myself.
This is about me finding myself and the story of how I have changed my life, become self employed and how I developed the products which are now my livelihood. Its the story of all the trials and problems and wonders of life that happen. I cannot even think what it would be like to return to the me of 2008 now and altho I am very poor really financially I am so very much happier and quality of life is so much better. And I am closer to being free than ever before in my adult life.
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