again too lazy to blog! Am considering taking second ( third?) job. cannot live at all right now and we dont have a 101% mortgage so I really do not know how other people are managing. Good this is the company stuff is finally coming together altho teh florists shop have only managed to so far sell 3 soaps but then that is much better than none. M keeps getting orders from work and the xmas markets seem pretty sorted. I have even considered becoming a private tutor ( well have done teacher training) but have so far not managed to find anyone who knows me from last time teaching in any of the schools I have contacted. Without references it just aint going to happen. cant blame the agency for that either really. The third attempt at a website is slowing coming along but I am again learning a new program and its taking longer. Also this time I need a bit of HTML which is slowing me up. having said that the website course ( monday evenings ) is really pepping me up and I am finding I am very happy on a tuesday which is most unusual since its mid week and usually I just hate work so much I spend the whole day wishing the day away! Work is just a boring waste of time and I just cant wait to finish the day which is sad and a complete waste of being awake! have started blagging people for discounts and managed to get a 20% discount on essential oils for teh xmas markets by simply being cheeky and ringing the owner up. Excellent. I am now doing next years March Brighton Vegan Fair which should be good and may even get us established who knows. Trouble is everything we do costs so much its just killing us. Maybe we should just sell the house and go rented. Might sound mad but I am seriously thinking we could buy a shop in cornwall with a flat over it and move down there and get a better life. Well something has to work eventually surely. According to Charlie who I spoke to te oter day the hill I am currently half way up is the hard bit. After that its a great life. I just cant help wondering how much further till I get to the top of the hill?