Well since my last post which was absolutely ages ago life has continued. I have lost Bluebell chicken and Red bird chicken as well as Snowy chicken. The very worst thing tho which is the worst thing I have ever known is the loss of my little brother Charles.
Charles Andrew Edward Thompson was born on 13th October 1966. He died on 10th April 2014 at the age of 47 years. He just went to sleep on Wednesday night and was dead on Thursday morning. Cause of death is as yet unknown and we await the autopsy.
I cannot describe the loss I feel. Its awful. I did expect him to die before me since all his life he has had health problems but there was no immediate life threatening problem anyone knows of. I expected him to be around at least another 10-20 years tho. I suppose at least he probably died without pain and without fear. Most of Chas's life he actually was in considerable pain having had a childhood illness that left him with arthritis as well as a variety of other ailments. He had also recently been diagnosed with both Kidney disease and Sleep Apnia so it was probably one of these that killed him. Eventually they will tell us why he died but really it doesn't matter cos I have still lost my brother.
He was the most generous person I have ever known and was always buying me presents. Well he was always buying everyone presents. That's just how he was. The thing that made him most happy was when he gave gifts to people and he spent most of his money doing just that. Christmas will never be the same again. It was when he was happiest. He was always embarrassing me with his extravagant gifts and I just could never afford to do the same back. He loved Christmas and the act of giving.
I was a rubbish sister and never really appreciated Charlie. He just died. And I loved him my little brother Charlie-boy. I do not think I ever actually told him.
This is about me finding myself and the story of how I have changed my life, become self employed and how I developed the products which are now my livelihood. Its the story of all the trials and problems and wonders of life that happen. I cannot even think what it would be like to return to the me of 2008 now and altho I am very poor really financially I am so very much happier and quality of life is so much better. And I am closer to being free than ever before in my adult life.
