I nearly rejoined the rat race today................

Well yes I did. I copped out and went to Brook Street to register for work. But then I forgot my passport. No big deal really since I can easily go back but Hey ho the girl behind the counter gets really stressed out, raises her voice - not shouting just stressing- at me. Have to say I am so glad I am not in work as such. I mean I actually work much harder and longer hours than most folk who do work but its different. Its for me! Anyway I could go back, maybe I will maybe I wont. I walked from my car which I had to park miles away ( literally) cos cannot afford to pay to park right now and was wet from wind and rain and cold and I forgot my gloves. So when I arrived I was not a happy bunny at all. But then I left and as I walked out of there I felt happy. I am still free. I have no idea how I am going to pay to get my van insured and MOTd - my reason for rejoining the rat race- but I sort of believe again. It will all work. If worst comes to worst I have a cedit card tho not the best way to sort a problem but my year is just beginning and just cos I have hada waste of time month where I have made no money at all and ends are definitely very far from meeting I will not just give up. It is meant to be and I am going to make it happen. Then I went into the alliance & leicester - not my favourite bank and they rarely seem to give me what I want but today I need £60 in £5 notes to do saturdays event. The girl on the counter was very young - maybe thats why she helped me or maybe its cos we have the same birthday - tho I am probably 25-30 years older! What a god day this is turning into. Then I drove to Daventry to check out the venue for the valentines fair I am considering doing. Still not sure but it is a council leisure centre so maybe I should go for it. After all it seems I am meant to continue in this venture and not just give up at the first real hurdle! Yey I am happy again and weird this the wrinkles between my eyes that I hate so much seem to be diminished. Now Tatty how the hell do I find a question to end this one? Maybe I should visit Brook Street more often and see how stressed they are working for a company and to remind myself that things usually work out when they are meant to and it will happen for me. Dont panic just cos the money has all gone! And then here I am at home and I have an order for soap! What more could I ask for?